a pinch is not enough...

i've had a bloody rubbish day.

something that was merely bad news last week has morphed into really awful news - and i am bereft of my rock of support because something i did last week and sought forgiveness for has not been forgiven (and i'm wondering if it ever will be, and mourning the loss as even if it is things won't be the same. and i see why it could be thought i don't deserve forgiveness, but i screwed up because i am screwed up over this thing, so this really is just making it all worse). and to cap it off, i felt as sick as a dog for several hours this afternoon and finally had to come home early from work - the boss's only reaction to me saying 'i'm ill, i'm going home, all my stuff is ready to rock'? 'ok. ta.' gah.

so despite being exercised about the scotland on sunday column, i'm in no state of mind nor body to ponce around for a blip. instead i give you the thing that perhaps mr hoyle intended us to have to hand when he wrote his piece (but due to budget cuts sos was unable to provide for its readers)...